Dresden Dolls in IC soon!!!!!!!!!!! check out the link. They are my top 5 now. Love them! NIN on Oct 8 in Cleveland...then Dresden Dolls...oh Billy Idol on Sept. 2o right here in DeMo. at the ValAir..........man.
I can probably die soon, as long as we see Tori and Beck within the next year.
then I can die.
haha.
okay...i'm not really THAT bad but I'm saying. I love music. I love concerts. i love experiencing them with other people that love them just as much...
and I'm excited.

anyway I totally lost myself there for a few days.... i didn't know how to be alone after the summer with you every day...and it was hard to remember how to just be...and how to reflect on the really real of me... because it all scared me too much and just being w/you and away from that made it easier...
so i'm sorry for my fuck ups and heart breaks and so on.
i am.
i regret.

alot.

i just wish it were easier to just be sometimes.
it's not.
this life is harder than I wanted i guess but its also suppose to be and i have to work harder at taking it and fighting full on rather than deciding to hide or fall away and take it defenseless...you know what i mean... anyway.
i guess my faith is getting stronger again and it takes so little for that to happen when I just look...But things still hurt that i want to just erase.

i don't know.
it's not important right now i guess.
just wanted to drop by myself.
later.