it's funny how people really think they know you when they never see you, understand you, or put themself on your level at all. They see not the things you've accomplished, the ways you've grown, or all the good things about you...the bad things or even perceptions blown out of proportion flash in their face for self defense and the fact that they are just negative. what you've done for them and how you loved them doesn't matter. self improvement doesn't matter. Faith, loyalty, honesty, struggle and hard work doesn't matter. the image of what you were more than a year ago replaces your presence and they keep it there as their own truth...for reasons you'll never know. because you can't try and show someone when they don't want to see. that kind of effort only hurts you in the end. even if you've already been hurt to such an extent...in ways they're right because you'd continue to put yourself out their knowing pain is a large possibility, to try and make them happy. so I'm the fool. I am the weak and unintelligent. the flighty. the immoral. i am the apitamy of all that is wrong in humanity. "oh but you're hearts good" for what it's worth...obviously nothing.