it's crazy how different I am than I used to be.
does that really happen? because it's crazy when I think about it. Just crazy.
Lately I am even more so different. I think people feel it inside each change they have...permenant change I mean. And I always feel it so I always know it's coming. It's crazy how empathy works in me and crazy how no one could really believe or understand it I don't think...it's not an easy thing though. I'm just itching to do something with my life. I am just excited at the person I will turn out to be. It will be good; I pray it will and I believe it will. My standards are so high though with life and people now; it's almost ridiculous. I'm not sure why, or how, but I wonder if it means I won't ever be satisfied and I wonder if it means it's intentional...I realized a lot of things over the past couple days. my eyes won't close. I'm direct and wired and have nothing to hide. I can feel the peak of something coming; I want to stay on top...I want to show everyone what is real...important...and make them believe in it. but how does one like me even begine to do something such as this? I have had so many things imbedded in my habits and conditioning...every part has to be examined and...corrected and maybe just stay the same but...polished.