here; i'm updating because I was being threatened and harrassed for not updating my blog. so i'm eating my delicious salad at the moment. of course i've been avoiding my blog because i know who reads it now and just don't want to worry about critism or non-playful harrassment or...judgement. i guess. i'll probably just stop blogging all together or create an entirely new blog with a new...genre or...a new type of blog...i have some ideas. it's true that blogs to some people have become a passive aggressive form of attack or other such things; a way for people to tell you something without worry about being held responsible for them i suppose... i only read blogs now that i know i will enjoy in some way...not just the journal blogs. anyway. shocked lots of people lately...which was to be expected...some people were happy shocked and others not so much...understandable...and not understanding is also expected...so it's like i just need to not worry about other people in some ways now because it doesn't matter how they see things or what they think...they wouldn't get it unless they are me...and they're not. anyway; my life is getting better every day...i feel a sense of goodness finally. stable goodness. i like it.