I wish I were so clear in my decisions, words, and actions that no one would have any question as to why. Why any of it...why I am me. I know that there is hope in my life I just wish I could grab onto it and help it grow into something real. I just hope that time will make things better; rather than opening and closing doors and confusion and detachment.. rather than appearing to be a trickster. I am blessed to have some rare people in my life that I wouldn't trade for anything' irreplaceable and indescribable...one in particular... but this life piles on you bit by bit..and it's so hard to just keep it at the core. I want clarity. I want knowledge.