so I didn't go to work today because I felt crappy and went to the doc and there's just some fluid on my lungs I have to get rid of so I'm not contagious which is good. Actually I went home at 6:30 last night and painted for a couple of hours. and then for a couple more. and stared at some pictures in my photo album...thought about memories...painted some more. played the keyboard a while. Wandered aimlessly through my apartment. Went to bed at 6:00 this morning. Woke at 10:00 called in. did laundry. started writing a story in an empty notebook for...4 or 5 hours. My hand REALLY hurts from that. I should've walked to the lab. My story will be finished. Which is a first. It won't be very good though but it's the context of what happens that is important. Really I want to write it; give it to a REAL writer and have them make it good. But keep all the important things. I ramble too much in stories and repeat myself. So then I put the notebook down finally after I realized I hadn't eaten since yesterday...morning.. and had a tuna sandwich. changed my clothes twice. and my hair. because I was bored and have no phone. finished reading The Philosophers of...something or other which I learned a lot...Like how the Lutheran religion was started. Luther was MEAN to Catholics. He just wanted to branch off into a segregated religion... I didn't know that. Some of the philosophies of certain Bishops and poets struck me as surprisingly modern for 15th century thinkers... much I agreed with; much I disagreed with. Story of my life. So then I realized I was totally bored of silence and solitude and came over here to hang out with Jake while he plays Mega Man. I didn't know if anyone would be home but I DID know that if they were they wouldn't mind me stopping by. Which is good. Everything is so far away and clouded. I'm excited about my story though. Maybe i can actually make it good after I write it then go back and fix parts...because there are already parts that are repetitive and...nonsensicle...if that's a word... but it's really...good...to me. I may be the only one who enjoys it but I want to read it to someone when I'm done. I found myself missing Kayla and Cole...becuase they'd been at my place all weekend...it's so quiet without them there and although kids can get annoying, when they listen they're fun...and you're never bored. So I like other people's kids...as long as they aren't brats. lol. Jennie's boy pal knows my neighbor who lives across the hall and one door down which we found out when he was on my patio smoking and you here "HEEEEY" "WHUTS UP MAN" and friendly familiar guy talk. I didn't see him then but the next day I was in a daze on my couch laying there and Ron and Brandon (the neighbor) walked in. I was exhausted and just layed there and waved and closed my eyes. lol. Yes, very hospitable. He did ask if I was up too late which I nodded and grunted in reply. So Brandon stood in my living room for a few minutes and was like "stop by anytime" and left. Oh yeah I was in my pajamas so I was hiding under a blanket; he probably thought I was a nut. Oh well. Ron's a nice guy after you know him (or after I do) I was skeptical and distrusting at first but I think he's all right...so far. And I'm totally comfortable around him which doesn't happen easily...as in I could care less how I look around him and I can be all sloppy and lazy in my pajamas and we can insult each other while He and J Dogg flirt and do their cuddle thing... it's fun. Another exciting discovery (which I had discovered long ago but is new to others) is mastermind. A game. Old game, I've had it forever but Jennie, Ron, the kids and I sat in my living room playing it for hours. It's freakin fun. I'm such a nerd. wow. but I liked this whole not going out this weekend just chilling and hanging out thing. By Sunday I was ready for alone time definitely. So I had that until just now..when I got here but he's so into mega man lol...it's fun to watch though. I'll probably hang out here and then go home. I really had nothing to say here at all obviously but my energy level and my activity level are not IN SYNCH. ok bye.